Secrets About Me

I hate being home alone at night.

I wish I looked like Heidi Klum, Charlize Theron or Katherine Heigl. Honestly, any one would do.

I want to be 24 years old again, but knowing what I know now, and being who I am now.

Sometimes I hate myself.

I feel like a failure a lot of the time.

I wish I could swim well.

I still want to be a "successful" author before I die.

I was extremely insecure in my 20s.

I've pretended to be sick in the past.

I think I'm a pretty good person overall.

I have hair growing on my face. Thanks, perimenopause.

Oftentimes, I wish I could just be.

Comments

Ash said…
"I wish I could just be."

It is an art, I believe. One I'm trying to perfect each day - but honestly, I'm failing miserably at it.

Wonderful post. Em
December 20, 2008 at 12:45 PM
Liquid said…
Darling,

You are beautiful just as you are.
You are unique. A polished coal that sparkles like the diamond you have become. Learn to look at yourself with YOUR eyes. Not through those that belong to others.
Allow yourself to shine JUST the way you are.

Personally, I think this is a beautiful post.
So therefore, you MUST be georgeous!

Yep.........I rechecked your profile pic..........you are astoundingly beautiful!
December 20, 2008 at 1:11 PM
Robin said…
hhmm....I saw your profile. I think your absolutely lovely!!!
In a totally non-gay way.
And I have a swimming pool and I can't swim either....it sad really. But I'm a floater.
In a totally non-dead way.

And thank all that is good and Holy that Sally Hansen makes produces to take care of my mustache!!!!

Love your self!!! Others do!
December 20, 2008 at 6:24 PM
Shupe said…
Never give up-

Great post-
December 20, 2008 at 7:11 PM
Angela said…
oh wow...powerful post! We live in a world where insecurity prevails...unfortunately. All of us face it from time to time.
December 20, 2008 at 10:34 PM
ShanaM said…
Insecurity is a big word and everyone face it at times.

Heidi Klum, Charlize Theron and Katherine Heigl don't look good when they wake up. We only ever see them with TONS of makeup on.
December 21, 2008 at 2:08 AM
Anonymous said…
I can totally relate to much of this. It's so hard to just be at peace with it all.
December 21, 2008 at 12:18 PM
nikkicrumpet said…
I was confident in my twenties...mostly because I was too self absorbed to know what a dork I was. Now I'm self concious because I am wise enough to see my dorkiness....denial was so much more fun!
December 22, 2008 at 4:52 PM
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